Friday, February 3, 2012

I don't know what to title this

The first month of the year has flown by. Work occupied most of the days in the month. If I were not working, I was involved in getting the CNY things prepared.
Work ... if has taken a lot out of me. Many friends who are serving in other schools ask why I am so busy with work, why am I always staying back, why I have to take students out so often, why I have so much paper work to do, why I seem to neglect my family over my students. I honestly cannot answer most of the time. I guess one answer I can give once in a while, is, I love what I do. I enjoy my work most of the time. I enjoy my students. But that does not mean I enjoy everything that gets thrown my way.
The last 5 weeks or so .... ever since we started preparing for the new semester, someone has managed to rile me up almost every other day. I keep feeling the urge to just erupt and let it be known how I (and some other people) feel. It is a sad and yet it is an extremely annoying thing when that person just seems to spew toxicity into our ears.
So far I have not done or said anything directly to counter that. I am not sure if I will. But I do wish I could. It is taking a lot out of me, and many other people, to bear with someone who just does not get that we are dealing with human beings and human beings are not mere numbers. It is upsetting to know that we are labelled the problems when we do not get evaluated highly. How can a guardian not protect and look after the interest of his charges? A guardian who only abuses and misuses his charge can be labelled an abuser - be charged in a court of law and be punished for his misdeeds. And yet, some people who are almost in that role, can get away with it scot-free, and only knows how to point fingers to blame, and waste the time of people who should be applauded just because everyone is lumped together as a group of ineffective subordinates.
My fuse is getting shorter and shorter. My patience is running thin. I can see no good thing coming out of this. Perhaps a change of scene is the way to go - on either side.


JaySpillz said...

Just keep mowing through bud. Nothing worse than saying something you will regret in the future... Keep Calm Move On :)

zainalmy said...

hopefully the long weekend has given u a good break to cool down. :)