Another week to go

With excitement as well as anxiety, I await the next one week to pass. I am looking forward, but also worried. I pray that I will have my anxieties lifted and replaced with lots of answers to my questions.

Preparation

Preparing for something not too distant in the future is not easy. It has been hard trying to figure out a lot of things, preparing for eventualities, and trying to find replacements. I am, by nature, quite a control freak. So it is terrible for me, not knowing how things will be, not being able to pass on the torch to someone else at this point in time. I wish I could just leave things be. But I cannot. Hence my problem of trying to prepare for all sorts of things.
Much as I am flattered that someone thought highly of me (whether it was sincere or not), it doesn't solve anything. I still need something more solid and sturdy than that.
If you are reading this and wondering what I am writing about .... it's nothing you can do anything about. So stop wondering. This is just me letting off steam a bit and also trying to make things clearer in my mind.

Countdown

The countdown towards this March holiday begins. It's still another 10 days away. But the countdown begins. I am so looking forward to it. Not just because I will be away, but because I am entering a new phase in life which I am not willing to share yet. Part of me feels a lot of guilt but ... I am sure most people will tell me not to feel guilty for something I have to do.

Prayer

My Lord God, you work in mysterious ways. I can never fathom how Your mind works. For Your ways are higher than mine, and Your thoughts are not my thoughts.
I can only pray that You continue to keep a hedge of protection around me as I step into the paths You have prepared for me. You know I will be scared, but You keep providing for me, and You prove to me that Your grace is sufficient for me.
Thank you, Lord.

He is my provider

The LORD is my provider. Amen. Truly He is. Just when I was running into corners and walls, He provides. I can never deny the fact that He has always remained faithful even when I am faithless. I need Him more than ever as I prepare to go into the unknown. I am afraid and once in a while I feel the fear overwhelming me. I know I can only depend on the dependable and that can only be my Lord God.